A day at home with no appointments and just the 3 of us! :)
Well, all 3 of us slept in the same room at the same time last night. First time Adam and I have slept in the same bed at the same time in 6 weeks. It was nice; I'd missed that. Aubrey did ok--went to sleep about 10:30, woke up to eat some at 1:30 and 4:45ish, then woke up again at about 8:30. Adam did the 1:30a.m. feeding, but of course, light sleeper that I am, I was awake the whole time. Then I fed her the next 2 times downstairs so we wouldn't wake Adam. She hasn't been eating her normal amount since last night--it's sort of stressing me out. Now is not the time for her to not eat--we really really really don't want that feeding tube back. Maybe she's just feeling a little blah after getting her shot at the doctor's office yesterday.
Adam has decided to go back to work on April 1. I can't even think about it without wanting to cry. I know it has to happen, but now that reality has set in I'm terrified. Not really about taking care of Aubrey--I know I'll have her the majority of the time, which is fine. I can run on less sleep than Adam; I always have. Plus I sort of pride myself on being independent and efficient--when you're alone a lot, you have to be. It's just that with Adam's weird schedule, we already had trouble finding time for just the two of us. Now I'm worried that between my work, his work, doctor's appointments, and people wanting to see the baby we'll have trouble finding time for the 3 of us to have any time together, much less an hour for mama and daddy time here and there. Since he switches from days to nights every 2 weeks, it's going to take us a while to figure out the best way to do things.
If you've ever read the stuff about the 5 love languages, you'll know what I'm talking about here--my love language is quality time. I need time with Adam to feel loved and important. His hours are not conducive to that (I knew that when I was dating him and I still married him--must be love! Or either I was delusional. Not sure.). I'm not knocking his job--he loves it and is dang good at it and I want him to do something he loves. The hours just suck (don't say "suck," Aubrey). I just don't want to be the mom that has the kid all day while the dad is at work (and I'm at work too), and then foists the kid off on dad as soon as he walks in the door exhausted from working his 12 (ha! more like 16) hour shift. We have to keep our marriage strong and in good repair in order to be good parents. *sigh* I guess every couple with a new baby and 2 working parents goes through this to some degree. We'll figure it out.
-Keli
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10p.m.
Well, she only ate one full feeding's worth today. She ate about half at 9 then fell asleep. I guess we're all going to sleep upstairs in our room again tonight. Aubrey and I stayed in all day since it was cold and rainy (spring? what?), but Adam got to go to one of his favorite places to toodle around and pick up a few things--Lowe's. Oh how he loves Lowe's. And I had to stay home with the baby. Darn. ;)
-Keli
Man, I wish I lived close enough that I could take you out for coffee and give you a big hug (and so our feisty girls could hang out together). Anyway, yes, you will figure it out. You may have to be really creative, but you will figure it out.
ReplyDeleteAlso, for what it's worth, Selah didn't eat real well for a day or so after her shots, either. Mostly she just slept.