As Scarlet O'Hara would say, "tomorrow is another day!" Well, I guess since it was yesterday that stunk so badly, that tomorrow is today...so, today is another day. Makes perfect sense. Anyhoo, the same stuff that happened yesterday is still happening today--I'm being blurted upon and changing her clothes and my clothes a lot, I'm still waking up 50 times a night to listen for her and getting up at 5a.m. to feed her, I'm still taking her to work and running up and down the stairs 20 times a day. But you know what? She's home. We don't have to go to the hospital every day to see her. She hasn't had apnea since the end of January. She's growing. She's smiling. She's laughing. She's doing everything a baby her "age" should be doing. I know I'm going to stress about everything concerning her; that's just the way I am. I just have to remind myself that these things that I'm killing myself over now won't matter in time. As long as she's healthy and well-loved, things are ok.
Now you are talking like my level headed daughter...who happens to be a great mother who loves and worries about her baby girl. That will never change:)
ReplyDeleteYou're doing great, Keli! Don't doubt yourself. That is the cutest face I've ever seen by the way! I think it's impossible to be unhappy about anything while looking at those pictures! :) -Amanda B.
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