The iv in her neck will be coming out today. Her weight is 2 lbs 8oz still. Everything else is good. More later.
We are busy with life today. You know. Errands and dr appointment and just normal everyday stuff.
Adam
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| She looks so pretty with no lines in and no tape on her chest. And she's smiling. :) |
8p.m.
We went to the hospital for a while this morning, then I had my 6 week check up this afternoon with my OB-GYN, then we headed back to the hospital. Aubrey did ok this morning, but, yet again, as soon as I held her she had an episode. Pretty sure it was due to her head positioning and maybe some reflux. We got it straightened out and I held her for a while longer with no problems. She had an absolute doozy of an episode right as we were getting ready to leave tonight--she turned blue and the nurse had to sit her up and wiggle her to get her breathing right again. I know this was because of reflux--we saw it come oozing out. Sometimes she does so well, and sometimes she just stinks it up. On the upside, she had her broviac line taken out, and her skin looks so pretty with no line on it and the ton of tape taken off.
“I feel thin, sort of stretched, like butter scraped over too much bread.”--Bilbo Baggins, "The Fellowship of the Ring"
That's how I feel right now. My emotions are stretched to the limits. Of course I cried all the way home tonight after Aubrey's episode, and then I cried some more when I got home. Adam, trying his best to make me feel better, said, "we only have 6 more weeks of this crap. We've already done 6, we can do 6 more." Well, thinking about 6 more weeks of this slow torture just made me burst into tears again. I have trouble thinking about getting through one night, then one day, then one more night...I can't think about 6 more weeks of watching her struggle and not go off the deep end. So, I just won't think about it in terms of 6 weeks. I have to only take one day at a time to stay sane...or as sane as possible. Hopefully the struggling will stop and she'll get the hang of things as the 6 weeks go on. That's what my sanity is counting on.
-Keli
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| Kickboxing class. Hiiii-ya! |
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