Friday, February 22, 2013

1p.m.

We survived another night and both got a little more sleep, I think.  Aubrey, however, decided to stay awake from about 9p.m. until about 1p.m.  Mama wasn't thrilled, but that's ok.  We had to work out our schedule this morning to make it to the pediatrician's office at 10, so that required moving the 9a.m. feeding up some and actually getting in the car by 9:30.  We left at 9:34, so I think we did pretty good for our first outing with a baby.  Aubrey slept the entire way there and was very good for the doctor for the most part.  She didn't appreciate the thingy in the ears or the bright light in the eyes and tried to push the doctor away.  The doctor said, "wow, you're strong."  Yep, she's been pushing doctors and nurses off of her since she was less than 2 pounds.   She's had practice.  She did not appreciate getting her 4 month shots.  She cried like a "real" baby, especially when the nurse made her bleed.  Way too much blood for mama or daddy's liking too. :(  We snuggled and she slept on the way home.

She realized it was a little past feeding time when we got home, so she told us to hurry up and get the food going.  We had to snuggle for a while longer since she had a tough morning, but now she's sleeping.  Her parents need a little nap too.

-Keli

8p.m.

Adam got a nice long nap this afternoon so that he can stay up with Aubrey first tonight.  I slept for about 30 minutes seeing as she was sort of fussy this afternoon.  She has slept most of the day--I guess that happens after getting vaccinations.  I hope she still sleeps tonight after snoozing the afternoon away.

ready to go to the doctor

Adam said to tell y'all that he likes having Aubrey around.  He's sorta glad she's home.  Me too.

hanging out at home

Since we've brought Aubrey home, I've realized that I'm still grieving the "normal" pregnancy and homecoming that I wrongheadedly assumed I would have.  I know bringing home a newborn is hard anyway, but I have to wonder if this would feel easier to me if we didn't have to bother with having her still attached to a monitor or have to deal with the aggravation of the feeding tube. Everything is still so...abnormal.  I can't roll out of bed at 3a.m. and feed her if she cries and be done in 20 minutes.  It takes 20 minutes just to get her food ready, then an hour later you get back up and it takes 20 more minutes to clean up.  Then an hour and a half later you start over.  She can't wear many of the cute little outfits she has because of all the wires still attached to her.  I don't know. I sound like I'm just complaining about little stuff now, but I guess it's just disappointing to me that nothing, even now, has gone as I thought it would when we got a positive pregnancy test.  Don't get me wrong--I'm ecstatic that she's home and I can hold her anytime and take care of her and learn all her noises.  I'm SO happy to have her home.  That totally outweighs any negative feelings I have.  She's so beautiful and perfect, even when she's grumpy after her shots. :)

-Keli